Hello, Akasnoball--
I'm so sorry to hear about your wife's passing. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. In doing so, you've helped me form a new goal--to have someone feel the words your wife expressed to you about me, and for me to feel those words about someone.
I so hope that the Medium community here helps you during this time of learning what life is like without her. And if that time comes to find someone to cherish and adore, I hope the sharing of info and experiences here in our Medium community helps you in that new relationship.
Take care.
--Lee